Building a sink so everything can go down the drain.

Apr 07, 2008

Life is complicated. Shanna wont talk to me now. She's been mad at me for 5 weeks now. She called me selfish and that I was just using her until I got a boyfriend. Thats not true. She ditched me the minute I got involved with someone (for 1 1/2 weeks!). But she is too angry to understand that now. She is being so childish. Marissa is sporadically rude to me. One minute I'm her best friend the next she is chastising me creuly acting like I am the stupidest person on earth. Its driving me crazy. How can they call me their friend and do this to me?

And, to top it all off, I finally got the courage to talk to the guy in my archeology class that I have had a crush on for weeks and I managed to screw it up. I invited one of our mutual friends to play pool saying for him to bring his friends in hopes that he would bring my crush. Instead, the mutual friend interpreted my friendly gesture as me coming on to him. Now my crush has completely withdrawn from me.

I feel like no one will let me talk or tell them how I feel. They wont listen, like my opinion dosnt matter. I needed a release so in my sculpture class I decided to make a statement and create a sink where I could dump a whole bunch of keys from a key board into the sink symbolic of pouring my words down a drain... they are useless and go unheaded.

Life sucks.