I'm an emotional fool.

Tuesday, July 03, 2007


me = emotional fool. but that's ok.
Current mood: amused
Category: Religion and Philosophy

to the voice that once again is speaking doubt. my response...

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"what was i thinking?

being driven by my emotions?"

you say I'll start sinking in no time

that my heart can't wade through these oceans



religion? Jesus? that's for the brain right?

7 days creation , dinosaurs, and who was cain's wife

you tell me to use my logic

but could i remind you, HEY THIS IS MY LIFE.



YOU SELL ME A LIE.

YOU TELL ME THAT FEELINGS GO WRONG AND LEAD ME CRAZY

I SAY we'RE LAZY

TOO AFRAID TO FOLLOW OUR HEART, MUCH LESS THE sacred heart THAT died TO SET OURS free

WHAT'S IT LIKE TO LIVE IN THE LAND OF CRITICISM, ALWAYS TRYING TO PULL ME DOWN?

you'd be better off leaving town.



cause my heart, it's the source of me

it drives me to speech, life, love, faith, and purity.... almost every choice

its emotions give wind to my sails. and when they point to Him, they never fail.

when you tell me to calm down, i feel like you're trying to shut up my voice.



and that's really it right?

if you can get me quiet

slow me down

get back to the old me

then it'll all go back to where it used to be.

you and me,

doing a dance

you calling the shots

and nobody's free

especially not me. or the others

you try to drive my passions in almost every way. you tell me to follow my heart. to let my mind go and my body will follow. to follow my dreams. to dance like no one's watching. to live like there's no tomorrow.

if it feels good, just do it..... UNLESS the 'it' involves HIM.

then it's like, oh you can't see Him. you can't prove Him.

or maybe it's 'well He doesn't want you to be that intense, that crazy, that sold out to a cause' it just doesn't make sense

sense?

of what?

of this-

dying and hunger

of poverty,

aids and

suicide, cutting, rape and hell on earth?

this goes on all over this piece of dirt,

but i'm supposed 2 be some robot who lives w/ emotion 4 everything EXCEPT

the Solution- the Balm- the Antidote, Messiah-

the Healer of all the hurt?



you wish. so, anyway, here's my decision.

i'm not checking my heart at the door like some cheap coat that doesn't belong.

over that next hill, somethings going to erupt. and i'm going to need my heart there.

and you'll know once and for all, you've always been wrong.

js. 7-3-07