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ClarissaLove
Female • 19 • West Palm Beach , FL • United States

Status... Single
Orientation... Straight
I'm into... Writing Design Photography Music Film and Video Acting Activism Art
I'm working on... Life.

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Last on: 03/02/2008 PST

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May 10, 2008 - 07:30 PM PST

jules33

I totally understand what you're saying...but I think that realizing this about yourself is half the battle. Many people don't even reaize these things, and spending money begins to slowly "pollute their soul" in a sense. If you feel that you can't control these "urges of selfishness" for lack of a better phrase, I would suggest finding something to do that is completely selfless and helps others, makes someone's life better somehow...even if it is something as simple as smiling at a stranger walking by on the street. It seems simple and naive, but thinking this way has helped me to see the many ways that I can be selfless. In short I think that selflessness, though very hard to gain and maintain, is something that can bring about true happiness for anyone. Just my thoughts :)

Apr 23, 2008 - 12:59 AM PST

devonair

Mar 01, 2008 - 07:13 PM PST

MEOutLoud

I do this too, although since I've moved out from my mom's (4 years now) I don't buy the clothes, I buy stuff to make the apartment look better, but I think in a way it's turned into a way of 1. cacooning and 2. wanting to invite more people in because I want them to see what I did and get the reaction. Then later I'll be mad about the money I spent because "hey I could've saved that for a house or something bigger and better than all the smaller stuff I bought." I don't know if that makes me feel like we're each other's puppets, but I think when we see the things we look for from other people we see the things we want to see in ourselves.

Mar 01, 2008 - 06:41 PM PST

Korgone

haha I know. I just needed a ranom title, and I was listening to cocian blues ^_^

Mar 01, 2008 - 06:34 PM PST

BLA

Thanks for the compliment I'm down with friends.

I think our generation is trying to figure out what it means to live the way we want to, especially those of us on ql. I mean, we grow up in a capitalist/consumer society in which artists and free thinkers usually make up a smaller group, and we have a hard time finding each other to build that mutual support network. When we cant find that network, we fall into what ever we can to find some semblance of fulfillment, leading us to leave the way society wants, putting us right back into my last comment.

So what do you think? Do we live like we want to, or how society tells us to?

Mar 01, 2008 - 06:02 PM PST

BLA

I totally get what you're saying, but I dont think we're each other's puppets. I think we look for a social circle and a place we can belong, a place we can call home, with people who understand us, down to our core. When we cant find that, we look to find ways to give ourselves the illusion of belonging and I totally get looking for attention to build that illusion, its very gratifying and I do it too. My trick is I mix and match stuff, use layers, and walk around knowing that everyone is going to do what he or she has to, but all I can do is understand that I have to live my life in a way that helps me grow. When I do that, I find that my friends, the ones who really appreciate me, step forward, make themselves known, and I feel all the more fulfilled. I hope this makes some sense.

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I want to change the world, I want to live a happy life, I want to be known as a lover, & I want to accomplish ALL my dreams.
Everything you do is because of your own selfish reasoning.

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Mar 01, 2008

I often wonder why I actually do things. No doubt everything I do is for my own selfish reasoning. But why? So I can get the pat on the back and a "Good Job!" The other day I was wondering why I had barely any money in my bank account. Then I realized I spent it all on clothes..I didn't understand how this could happen, so I started to investigate. Then I figured it out, this spending started hapening when I started to feel like crap. So I guess when I wasn't feeling to happy, I'd go shopping. Mainly because getting a new outfit made me feel good because I looked good. Then I loved the attention when I got a new outfit because it made me feel better. Why do I depend on people to make my mood? It's ridiculous but I don't know how to stop it. So are we just each others puppets?

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03/01/08 17:17 PST
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