Disappointment (This is for you)

Jul 19, 2008

I just realized that everyone is so two faced You say one thing and to another. Claim to stick by your convictions, and then turn right around and do just the opposite. You know I'm aware I'm not perfect and I don't claim to be. But I am not willing to play to different roles in life.

Now for the *This is for you* part:

Do you honestly think I'm that stupid? Like I'm unaware why you left. Why you are so unwilling to speak to me, or come around. At first I thought it was because you were new to the whole concept. Then I realize that it's because we both knew what you were wanting to do all along. You knew if you saw me you couldn't hide it b/c I could look in your eyes and see the truth, you know the one you were trying to hide. It's impossible around me it always is. For that day when you decide to come back, don't. I can see your future and it's not one I want to be a part of. When he said to you "Don't bother, you're way out of her league." I think he was right but you took it the wrong way. He was right in the fact that you are out of my league, because we both know I am far better than you can ever hope to be and you never deserved what you got. When you said, " I saw you and knew I was lucky to be yours." You were lucky and you threw it all away for the life you would rather have. Don't prepare the speech, I don't want to hear your meaningless words. Enjoy the life you chose. When you're friends are gone, and you're alone. Think of what you had and what you gave it up for. The loneliness, the "Good Times", the fun nights you had and the enjoyable mornings when you woke up over the toilet. What we had is dead and gone, Time doesn't heal everything but it healed this.