Just wanted to pour out some feelings...

Mar 08, 2008

I'm not really trying to make a big statement here...there's probably been thousands of people in my shoes b4 and i really don't want pity, just a kind ear....
So i've been together with my boyfriend for over a year now and things are going great...except for what we're about to go through in the next couple months that i'm not sure i'm ready for...hell...i don't think i'd be ready for it if i was 50 and married for 30 years lol. The point is that every since June of 07 i think i've seen him for a grand total of 1 month. This is b/c he is in the Marine Corps and serving our country. It's been a rough road... when you don't see the person you love for months at a time it wears you down, but I'm finally starting to cope with it better. The one thing i'm not ready for is him going overseas for 7 months fighting for our country. Between him shipping out and me graduating and moving out all at the same time...it's really beating me into the ground. College, i can handle...but i'm not ready for him. It feels so surreal & I have no control over it..the only thing I can do is pray extra hard every night for god to keep him safe and bring him home. Before I started dating him i didn't care about the war...i didn't care about politics or presidents and everytime I saw a story about a soldier killed on T.V. i had no emotion about it. Now, when a story about the war or fallen soldiers comes on...i have to change the channel. I can't deal with that @ 17. I feel so much compassion and emotions for the families and admire everyone who serves now b/c not only is my boyfriend in the military but so is my best friend and 1/2 my class. All I ask of any of you reading this is your prayers for all of them, especially for us. I know it'll be hard but I think we can make it...we've made it this far right?