MaddHatter Male • 22 • North Chicago, IL • United States

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Status... Single
Orientation... Straight
I'm into... Writing Photography Music Film Acting Activism Art Love Mind
I'm working on... A couple of modeling projects, as well as some acting and writing of my own.
My sites... http://www.myspace.com/djmyth1
My Profiles... http://www.myspace.com/maddhatter1

Welcome! Thanks for joining me on my journey to find the Shards of A Broken Heart.

Last On: 08/17/08 PST

About me

handica - okwerd

Interests

Music

,I listen to just about everything except Country. I grew up in a family that loves all sorts of music from reggae all the way to J-Pop. So expect to hear some sort of diversity on my Myspace page. Don't be surprised if I bust out some Punjabi Music or some Amuro Namie (yeah. didn't think I knew who that was did you?),

Film

,I like all of those crazy demented movies like: Titus,The Crow,Interview with the Vampire,Bram Stoker's Dracula,Beetlejuice,Rocky Horror Picture Show,Nightmare Before Christmas,Love and a .45,Blue Velvet,Cecil B. Demented,The Lost Boys,Stigmata,Identity,The Bourne Identity,& Eternal Sunshine,

Artists

,Rumiko Takahashi | Jay Axer | Rose Besch | Tite Kubo | Rem,

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Aug 17, 2008 - 09:33 PM PST

writergirl01

whoa this is pretty intense and dark. -an artist's mind.-

as for the writing aspect, my favorite part of this is "I'm Internally bleeding black thoughts" and the whole rhyming scheme in the last two lines

Jul 03, 2008 - 02:09 PM PST

SuperDan

MaddHatter

No problem, just don't be a stranger! :]

Jul 03, 2008 - 11:05 AM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

LMAO! Yeah, I guess you wouldnt want to tell anyone that. The secret is safe with me. lol. Well my mom is scary too but just not as bad as my dad because she is constantly yelling at me for no reason 24/7. I'm pretty much used to her yelling and she makes all these funny faces when she gets mad and sometimes i just have to laugh but that gets me in a lot of trouble. My dad is the quiet type so when he gets angry you know that he is pissed off.

Jul 02, 2008 - 08:26 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

I know! I really wanted to wake my dad up but he gets really mad. My friends say he has incredible hulk status. haha. Lets just say he has a short fuse. I was about to freak out though. I seriously slept on my floor because I didnt know if it was in my bed or not. Eww. Thanks for the nose ring compliment. I like it. Oh and I never told you, I took your advice on the shoes and it worked out perfectly!

Jun 11, 2008 - 07:36 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

Hey! i haven't talked to you in sooo long. How are you?

May 26, 2008 - 08:09 PM PST

dwhouse

Wow, this post really took me by surprise because I remember dealing with suicide when I was in high school. Like you, I felt like the one's I held closest were the ones trying to destroy me, so I took on the idea that I have to destroy them too, and the best way to get their attention was through destroying myself. I hope that you will not take this route because it does get better, maybe not instantly, but just wait.

May 26, 2008 - 08:05 PM PST

dwhouse

Apr 28, 2008 - 07:29 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

LOL. I really am thinking about it. eventually i will have to learn how to walk in heels.

Apr 28, 2008 - 07:25 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

LOL. I really am thinking about it. eventually i will have to learn how to walk in heels.

Apr 28, 2008 - 11:09 AM PST

Grigori

MaddHatter

hey bruh, just thought to check in with ya...see how things are going for ya. keep ya head up!

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POEM: Breakdown

Aug 16, 2008

I was born with that feeling of happiness.
Later that feeling turned into me wanting to die several years later.

I couldn't help but grab the blade;
Even Jesus himself told me that I would be better off in Hell.

When I was younger, I used to believe in miracles.
Too bad I was never that fortunate to experience one.

It seems like my tears of pain always go unnoticed.
Like I'm nailed to a cross and left there to die.
My heart will always be broken.

I often wonder, who will save me now?
I try to ponder the answer, but I always end up adding one more sentence to my suicide note.

The only kisses I have received are the ones of pity.
I don't need the pity, I just need someone to understand me.

The Pills, The Drugs, The Alcohol, does nothing to soothe my soul.
The hatred that builds up inside of me, just leaves me emotionally tore.

The blood that races through my veins is forever pumping...against my own will.
I keep trying to tell myself that this is all fake, even when I know that the situation is real.

I'm Internally bleeding black thoughts, that weren't mine to claim at the beginning.
I often speak to myself and ponder what things I can do to myself, that can rid me of this emotional labyrinth I forever wish to escape.
My insanity is killing me, and I don't know how much more of it I can take.
Maybe I'll just take that last dose of methamphetamine, and just wait till my body breaks.