Chapters 7-11

May 02, 2008

Chapter 7-

The Clock

The world around me speeds up
And I stay frozen in the hands of a melting clock
Memories of years gone past I block
From the mind that held them
But I wait for them to resurface
Teaching me of lessons I’ve learned in a before life

I watch the world around me speed up
But I lay here frozen in the confines of a broken time
Life becoming routine and benign
I sit here searching my mind
To find the memories of time changing course
And I watch all my memories fade to black
Like the world when there is no moon to be found
I feel like my mind has drowned
In the ever tormented waters of time

I watch the world around me speed up
And I’m here frozen in the spinning hands of a broken clock
I am here dreaming, thinking of you
But I’m frozen waiting for you to notice me
As I lay here cursed by time my mind fades away
And frozen in time is where I’ll lay
Waiting for you another day








Chapter 8-

Moonlight

Darkness falls across this world
Only to be broken by the moonlight
Giving trees and people shadows
That should only belong to monsters
The road of life is shadowed
By the deserving moonlight
Sounds sound out in the night
Cutting this silence like a knife

A girl with hair as black as deep night
Walks the road
She’s not frightened by all she sees
Walking past monstrous shadows of trees
The road twists out in front of her
Putting one foot in front of the other
She keeps walking
Not flinching for a sound that breaks silence

I sit on the edge of the road
Watching you walk with no emotion
You walk past me without a glance
I watch the back of your head
As you walk away from me
I look up at the moon wishing for change
Looking at the clouds to bring rain
Waiting for the birds to sound
Listing for the whisper of your voice
Wishing the shadows would change shape
But all of these wants go unmet

Watching you walk past me
Gives me a sense of freedom
Like I’ve been let off the chain
That you had wrapped around me
I have lost you to the road
I have my own road to walk now
The moon slowly turns red
Changing the way the shadows look
Changing how I can see the objects I see
My heart slowly freezing, closing up
Like a freezing pond in the dead of winter

I feel the coldness enter my body
Not physical, but emotional cold
Leaving me closed to you
As I watch you walk past me
Your eyes never glanced over to see
What scared face sat waiting for you

The road of life has a path marked
Each one of the faces
Each set of eyes
Has a path down the road
No one knows how far down we will go
How far can we
The moon is setting on the road
And soon the bright light sun
Will take the ever-changing moon’s place
And warm the ground left cold
By the freezing emotions of the heart
I sit and wait till the moon rises again







Chapter 9-

Through My Window

As the darkness consumes the sky
No drowsiness takes hold of me
No need for the infernal slumber
I watch the silver moon rise
above the dead trees of winter
I watch as the moon changes all
lighting all that in darkness stays hidden
A dark haired beauty outside my window
Dancing under the silver glow of moonlight
He looks up at my window
His eyes dark and full
I can hear the tick of the clock on my wall
I can hear the raven feeding off a dead mouse
I can hear everything around my head
telling me I should jump
I take a breath of stale air
into my burning lungs
And jump through the window
falling and falling until I hit ground
I look at where he was
But he wasn’t under the moonlight
I felt my life slipping
He was just a memory
in a scared mind
He had never been, He never was
as I lay dying
The moon has disappeared
My eyes close
Now forever locked in silence



Chapter 10-

Shadows in winter

Shadows cover the ground of a meadow in winter
The sun hiding behind the clouds
I walk out onto the moist grass from the dark forest
I’m drowned in the shadows of the dead trees
I am drowned by my thoughts of you in the moonlight
The truth is shrouded by shadows of the dead

I watch the sky move, and the shadows morph around me
I stand there wanting to drown in the waters of your love
Instead I am drowning in the shadows of dead trees in winter
My eyes are closed drowning myself in images of you
The yellow of the hidden sun slowly fades turning to black
My lungs filling with the water of your images
I am drowning in my love for you

The rain falls heavy down on me
The black clouds hold together like iron bars on a jail cell
Keeping the moon from me
Inside my mind is ripping, and tearing for you
My cold heart has been priced by your warm gaze
Every time I close my eyes I feel your warm embrace
And I see the silver moon lighting your perfect face

I live in this meadow of my mind
With the shadows in winter, and the dead trees
I live with you in my mind
Always there for all time
I walk out of the meadow and into the dark trees
And the moonlight shines



Chapter 11-

I stand Alone

I stand alone on the edge of this bridge
Looking down the river looks hungry
Looking up the moon cries out for me to stop
I stand alone on the edge of this bridge
My mind is made up
Alone I will jump for there is no one here
I stand alone in this mind I call mine
I stand alone
The water is cold and hungry for me
And the water will get its fill
I stand alone on the edge of this bridge
Watching the crying moon fade behind clouds
Darkness now takes over
And I am compelled to jump
To drown in memories of you
No one is here with me, I stand alone
No one will prevent the water from feeding
I stand alone
I jump alone
I die with you