Guys are always easier to make friends with. Its the same way with me. I have like a million guy friends and like maybe one true chick friend. And yeah I know about being called a whore because of it. . .it really sucks and its totally unfair.

I lost my grandfather last february and we were really close...It changed me but i dont know if it was for better or worse...complete detachment has been the result and it seems unfortunate but I can also tell its made me stronger as an individual...at times i feel like I've skipped adolescence and went from being a child to being an adult overnight...Independence is a beautiful thing, it's learning to adapt thats the hard part...you've just gotta put one foot in front of the other, even if you have no idea where you're going...I'm sure you'll be fine kidd...

-Carl...

it use to be really hard for me to let go, but its become unnervingly easier. sad. yet relieving. nice blog.

There's nothing wrong with how you feel. I'd be more worried about you if you were nineteen and had figured the whole world out. Stay strong!

"You want to be dressed in poetry, but imagery doesn't fit" From Cute is What We Aim For -- Lyrical Lies. One of my favorite songs. :)

I can relate to an extent, but I've never really been able to form a sincere attachment to anything, which is probably why I'm batting zero in the relationship field...Freud might say it stems from my childhood but he was a jerk and a coke addict so what does he know...

Oh, and thanks for the happy birthday

I appreciate your comment, I probably should find new friends, I just need to do some other things first :)