Ever feel.. inadequate?

Mar 12, 2008

So, remember when you were a kid, or if you are, were/are you like a 3rd(maybe 2nd) adult in your immediate family? I mean, I feel like I am another parent; like my parent's closest friend, but I know they can't tell me everything because of the natural boundary between mother/father and daughter. And then I feel it my responsibility to fix things that I see that need helping, especially the desperate cases. Like my parents, they don't talk enough. They neeeed to. I don't think they realize that each loves the other anymore. I mean, as stupid as it sounds, I remember a time not too long ago when I walked in on them, but I can't recal them even getting near such a point with each other in about a year or more. I mean sex used to be pretty often with them, and seriously, as stupid as it sounds, sex in a marraige is important. It shows that mutual passion and love and it shows that each still is attracted to the other and does love the other and nothing has truely changed and... sorry, I should shut up. It's just it's getting to the point that I feel like it's threatening their marraige. They just don't talk. My mom doesn't get that my dad needs my mother to listen, but since she doesn't exactly listen to well (not cuz she can't but cuz I don't think she gets that he needs it), he just bottles it up. I mean the only vent he really has anymore is me, and I'd say that's great, that he has someone, and it's true, but it brings up the matural boundary of knowledge to be shared between father and daughter, when it should be the wife anyway who should be his best friend. After all, I know that each of them married their best friend, and I honestly think that's the best thing. It's just worrisome, in these tough situations. UGH I wish I could say more, but I can't; wouldn't be wise.

Adeiu