Male • 22 • East Brunswick , NJ • United States
Status... Single
Orientation... Straight
I'm into... Writing Photography Music Film and Video Art
My sites... http://www.myspace.com/kalim
Music
- ,When someone asks me what kind of music i listen to,i honestly don't know how to responded,without being stereotypical. I really like everything,but I mostly enjoy listening to punk/alternative music. I don't consider myself a punk rocker,but i do enjoy those bands,but my favorite band Anberlin isn't really "punk" so i don't know what to call myself,yet i don't care cause im not in HS anymore and having a label isn't important anymore. I am who you think of me.,
Film
- ,I used to me really into film-making,but since then i gotten busy and never had time to create a film. I want to start writing and make something during the spring semester,I also wanna start a webisode of some kind. I really need to stop hiding what i think and tell the world what goes on in my head.,
Books
- ,I really don't read much,I do read a shit load of articles online about anything ranging from News to Tech Tips. Yes I am a dork and for the most part am Proud out it,yet sometimes i think of myself as the dumbest person in my Fraternity,yeah I am a brother of the Alpha Iota Chapter of Phi Sigma Pi National Honors Fraternity at Montclair State University.,
Artists
- ,I have bee getting into Spoken Word,like the type you see on HBOs Def Poetry. So artists who can speak there mind are my favorite,it motivates me to be true to myself,which is hard to do since i secretly have low self-esteem,well it isn't much of a secret anymore. ok I'm gonna stop blahing on about myself.,
"Do I Trust my Heart, or Do I Trust my Mind?"
Who Am I?
Dec 10, 2007
3rd Year of college I am asking myself the same question
I thought that joining Phi Sigma Pi would be a great thing, most of the times I do think that, but sometimes it makes me think otherwise. Wait its not really PSP that I think about its my interaction with the opposite sex, the ones im interested in particular, why cant I find enough balls to make a move, I am scared of being rejected, probably. As always im not sure what she thinks, idk if she would even go out with me. If she likes me shouldn't she give the same amount of effort or attention to me as I give to her. I have a bad habit of letting her be on my mind all the time. Today I woke up and the first thought I had was of her. WTF? I need to not be crazy over someone because I'll probably be let down, because I dont have enough confidence. and blah blah blah, i need that confidence, but most of the time i dont have it. Its sad the only place where I have confidence is at work. I really need to find a new outlook on life.
People may think, im funny, crazy or fun to be around. I keep the mood happy for others, but deep down I am a emotional wreck. I am not crying out for help. I am teling you as it is. Now people may say just be yourself and everything will be ok, but what if i never act like myself, so how do i act like myself when i dont even know what myself would act like. I really dont know who I am anymore. I like to think that i am that outgoing person that brings a smile to the room. I like to
think i am a catalyst in making people happy. but I need to happy also. I got the greatest big, brothers, family and friends. But i dont have one one person that can make me keep my head up as i walk around. Why am i convinced that I need a GF to be happy. Well I will tell you something that i am not proud to say nor do i wanna say it, but since i have everything I would ever want in the world minus a GF, i am not truly happy at heart. So the only thing i dont have must be the key to my happiness.
Even if i get a chance to take her out, I will be unable to be myself, because im keeping something from myself and what if i tell her and she doesnt feel the same way or is willing to give it try, my heart will be broken and trust me no one wants to see a broken hearted Kalimy
12/10/07 08:52 PST
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