The Sickening

i want something more
i want something better
i'm sick of nothing being better than the enthrallment of alcohol
i'm sick of nothing being better than the enticement of sex
i want to be in love
i want to make love
not have sex, make love
I'm sick of the world spinning just to spin
i'd rather fall off
I'm sick of the monotony of our country
I'm sick of how everything is structured to prevent change
Our world is falling to peices and we no longer posses the capabilities to stop it
Why would we?  We all have ipods and cell phones now
I'm sick of compromise and meaningless broken hearts
i'm sick of substance abuse
i'm sick of withdrawl
i'm sick of corrupt politicians
i'm sick of smogged out sunsets
i'm sick of never getting to see the sunrise
i'm sick of passing out on top lifeless bodies
i'm sick of pointless conversation
i'm sick of not hearing your voice
i'm sick of routine
i'm sick of being here
i don't want the world, i just want to be part of it
i hate being a slave to money
i'm sick of financial instability holding me back
i hate the way the glamour fades
i'm like a lost soul trying to find heaven here on earth
i just want to hold your hand
i just want to watch the skyline together
lets watch all the people in their ticky tack houses
lets watch them run in circles chasing their own tails
lets let go and accept pain
lets be better

this is just me ranting.  the truth is that this is me one step closer to stopping this all together. this is my give up