been a while

Apr 27, 2008

yes yes it has been FOREVER since ive been on! just really busy i guess. But thats ok. So life. well my life anyways is wonderful! i love life and am very grateful for my choices and the things ive learned! I'm engaged and things have never been better. Its been going good for about a month now and with the attitude of both of us being what it is. I dont ever see it not working out. Of course things can happen but im trusting our judgment to lead us where we need to be.
Other's lives I'm dealing with tho.... ouch. stress beyond stress.
My best friend's engagement broke up and she basically has hit rock bottom. She's always had certain problems and I've always been there for her the best I could and accepted what i knew she couldnt change. But this time shes done a complete 180. She says shell be fine, then turns right back around and says she needs professional help. She won't talk to me and says she just doesn't want to talk about it. She started smoking, more than just cigarettes, which she won't admit too. She started sleeping around again. Drinking excessively. And has had to have her mom lock up her medication so she doesn't take more than is prescribed. ugh...... I get sooo frustrated with her cuz she wont directly look at the problem and take care of it. She blames the facts that she has problems and there is nothing she can do. Or its the doctors fault they gave her the wrong prescription (which she is taking to much or not at all). I'm so scared for her life. She has horrible depression and a history of suicide behavior (cutting, drugs, etc.). Any suggestions on how to handle this??? She says she cares and every time we talk she convinces everyone she is doing what she can. ..........
Anyways.... this sucks.
Night.