Today

January 24, 2008

How much longer can I be on the verge of changing the way I do things? Today’s version of me is perpetually getting in the way of the betterment of Next Week’s version, Next Year’s version, and the version that doesn’t get to make any changes (Dead Version, Legacy Version). Today’s version is not much different from Last Year’s version, or even the Virgin version (7 Years Ago version). One difference would be that Today has a rough idea of why he’s like he is, and what he has to do for a happy Tomorrow, while Virgin only had questions. And was a little bit happier than Today. I think. Today gets through every damned day by promising himself Tomorrow will be better, will take care of the things Today is too lazy and too scared to take care of. Today is always thinking about Tomorrow and Next Month and Next Year, while forgetting that if Today doesn’t work on Today today, then Next Year will be just like Today, but maybe a little darker. It should be noted that Today cares about what happens tomorrow, and next year. Hopefully, Next Year cares about tomorrow and the next year. If Today and Next Week and Six Months From Now make the right moves, Next Year will be in good shape, hopeful and happy for tomorrow, and Tomorrow. Today has to take it one step at a time, doing exactly what Today says he will do, today. And tomorrow. And the next day. Until Next Week is better than Today, and Last Week, and Last Year. Then, Two Weeks From Now keeps doing what Today started thirteen days before. It sounds so easy now, because all the responsibility is being shifted to Tomorrow. And that bastard is just as irresponsible and spineless and hopelessly hopeful as Today, leaning on rationalizations like a drunk leans on a lamppost. Maybe Tomorrow will be better tomorrow. But I doubt it, because he sucked today.