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Mar 22, 2008 - 08:40 PM PST

daffodilkris

ccsqueaky

I'm so happy that someone else can relate and feels like I'm speaking the same language instead of just understanding but having a completely different experience. I'm sure we're not exactly alike, but although it is good to hear people say to look on the bright side, or that someday someone will come, it's nice to be able to just commiserate with someone who has a similar experience. My mother actually got married at age 23, and my sister was engaged at 23 (I think) before they broke up and now she's engaged at 25. She met guys through friends and dad was my mom's driving instructor. Well, I already know how to drive and I don't know that I would trust my friends' taste in friends aside from me...

Mar 22, 2008 - 12:55 AM PST

daffodilkris

I totally get this. For the friend that tried online dating to tell you to try it - it makes sense. But for the people who met their mates the old-fashioned way - it makes you feel like they think that you are incapable of meeting someone unless you go online. Like they don't think that you can do it the old-fashioned way. I know people who have gotten married after meeting online, but I don't think either couple used a "dating" website. I don't know if I'll ever try that. I don't know if I want to tell my kids "it's a funny story, I met your father by browsing the single men in New York State aged 25-30 years on match.com"

Mar 15, 2008 - 10:07 PM PST

_alanna_

If that's what I have to look forward to, I think I'll just stay 20 lol. Honestly, I know I don't act 20...in fact I probably act closer to 30. Simultaneously I seem to be getting younger.(People used to think I was around 40...now it is more around 30) Wow, okay, irrelivant. (And don't appologize for rambling...it means you're thinking! If you didn't have an active mind you couldn't ramble. Therefor rambling = good lol) What I wanted to say was that I try not to let the opinionr of other affect how i act. In fact, I pretty much take the responsibility I can handle and live in a way that I know makes me happy. Who cares were you get if getting there was hell? Then if you make it okay to go through hell to get somewhere, then that is likely to be the story of your life...because there is always somewhere to go! Live in the moment and make that moment the best it can be. Just something to think about...

Mar 15, 2008 - 08:14 PM PST

daffodilkris

I might be only 23, but I feel like I'm being pulled in the same way because my older brother "failed" in some way or my parents think that I'll be able to do something better with my life than my siblings. I have 2 months until I finish my Master's degree yet they talk as if I will be able to get a full time job in a snap and move out and pay my bills and do absolutely everything that I need to. My sister seems to be in the middle because she has a fiance who just got an apartment that she'll likely move into and she finally found a ft position in her field. But the pressure, the confusion... I get it.

Mar 10, 2008 - 12:07 PM PST

oliq

I am sure you're okay... Everyone goes through the same feelings and doubts and fears sooner or later. You're a sensitive person, not shallow or void. You seem to be lucky, for you have parents you can turn to... You have a job and you have true friend.
So you have bills, who doesn't?
I would say is all a matter of how you decide to face the situation, if you see it as a challenge and you want to live up to it or you want to see it as a problem. If it is a challenge you will find strategies and have fun making things work for you, observing how you can take control of things is one of the most empowering feelings one can have.
I was once your age and I decided to stand for my adulthood. I left my parents home way too early. I know now that whatever I did for myself was worth doing and living, but I am sure I could have done economically better if I had stayed home a little longer. So use it wisely and smile... I am sure we all look better when we do it. (: oliq

Mar 10, 2008 - 11:53 AM PST

oliq

Any baby, at any place and under any spell, just like this one... is worth shooting! Good one, girl. :)

Mar 10, 2008 - 05:54 AM PST

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Neat picture.

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May 22, 2008

I always thought that if I got what I wanted then I would be happy. We are taught to have goals and that through hard work we can achive anything. I came up with a goal, I've been working really hard and not my goal is within my grasp and yet I don't feel like I have achived anything. Don't get me wrong, I'm really, really happy about everything. This want I want, but now I'm scard. Not like I wasnt scard before, but this is a differnt type of being scard. Why can't I just be in the moment and be really happy. I've tried to tell people that I'm scard, but no one will listen to me, it is like I'm telling my life story in a sound proof room. I've been working for three years for this and now that it is here I just don't know what to do. Does this just mean that I'm self distrutive or am I valid in my fears? I'm really good at what I do, I know that, but what if I'm wrong? Everyone has helped me soooo much, what if I don't live up to their standards? What if everything is too much. I don't know.... I don't even know how to make these feeling go away, what if they don't? I've watched all my friends go from being little kids to adults. I know what for reason out of my control I got a late start. I know I don't have control of the things I really want to have control of. So why it is that I'm having such a hard time now. Everyone scard, so what does mine feel so different then everyone elses? I don't know if there is an answer. I just needed to ask the questions.

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