March 1, 2008
I often wonder why I
actually do things. No
doubt everything I do is
for my own selfish
reasoning. But why? So I
can get the pat on the
back and a "Good Job!"
The other day I was
wondering why I had
barely any money in my
bank account. Then I
realized I spent it all
on clothes..I didn't
understand how this could
happen, so I started to
investigate. Then I
figured it out, this
spending started hapening
when I started to feel
like crap. So I guess
when I wasn't feeling to
happy, I'd go shopping.
Mainly because getting a
new outfit made me feel
good because I looked
good. Then I loved the
attention when I got a
new outfit because it
made me feel better. Why
do I depend on people to
make my mood? It's
ridiculous but I don't
know how to stop it. So
are we just each others
puppets?