cmc_scadbees Female • 21 • Conyers, GA  • United States
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Status... Single
Orientation... Straight
I'm into... Writing Design Painting Art Mind intimacy openess dark twisty sexual..
I'm working on... general studies in fine art at scad... wil currently trying to finish commission paintings and my own personal projects.. mostly all are in pastels and oil paint..
sometimes i wish i could have been edie sedgwick... just wicked crazy..
Last On: 06/12/08 PST

About me

i can sometimes be anti social.. i love my cat.. i have to many cloths and can never figure out what to wear.. it would be nice if after 3 yrs of art school i could pick a major but i just love everything... i am slowly trying to figure out what im doing in this life and why i make it so hard on myself..

Interests

movies

,the godfather,sweeny todd,eastern promises,the kingdom,the cell,hard candy,marie antoinnet,kids,monsters ball,harry potter,the break up,derailed,crash,that thing you do,requiem for a dream,a beautiful mind.... mostly very dark movies that make you think..,

books

,the art of seduction,oil by upton sinclaire,edgar allen poe: complete works,all harry potter books,smashed,a tree grows in brooklyn,dracula,midnight in the garden of good and evil,where the sidewalk ends,I am America and so can you- stephen colbert,the davinci code,middlesex,in cold blood .. so many more,

tv

,rock of love,rescue me,project runway,friends,frasier,sienfeld,cheers,nip/tuck,house,family guy,cops,discovery channel.....,

medias

,carpentry,clothing/embroidery,paints,pastels,color pencil,sculpture,pottery,glazes,photos and photoshop... small graphics.. mostly fine art and sculpture,

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Mar 20, 2008 - 12:12 PM PST
dex2988
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cmc_scadbees
make no mistake...there are PLENTY of things i need to improve about my life. but i don't have to be upset over all of it. i've been gaining lots of perspective lately, and it's led me to better appreciate my abilities and advantages, despite my flaws and setbacks.
Mar 19, 2008 - 01:30 PM PST
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cmc_scadbees
cmc_scadbees
I'm one happy camper, Candice. Things are good!
Mar 16, 2008 - 12:46 PM PST
dex2988
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Color Pencil medium:' The SunSEt vIsiOnARy'
I'm so glad you're sharing your work with us!
Mar 12, 2008 - 08:26 PM PST
doyouno
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Color Pencil medium:' The SunSEt vIsiOnARy'
wow!
Mar 12, 2008 - 02:22 PM PST
neysha88
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Color Pencil medium:' The SunSEt vIsiOnARy'
This is Just BEAUTIFULLLLLLL
Mar 12, 2008 - 01:02 PM PST
april
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Yeah, I think it's a world I like visiting when I'm down, to be honest. Those kids put a damn smile on my face upon arrival. It's amazing. :)
Mar 11, 2008 - 02:59 PM PST
dex2988
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the broken and the beautiful
this is truly touching. takes us right inside to see how you're feeling.
Mar 09, 2008 - 12:17 PM PST
dex2988
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cmc_scadbees
cmc_scadbees
hey how's life, wallflower? :p
Mar 02, 2008 - 12:30 PM PST
Edmonds2007
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alone in my depression..
If I had this photo it would be a great temptation to execute in a soft edged ( as in the photo ) monochromatic blue.It might even be cathartic!Just an unsolicited idea.
Mar 02, 2008 - 12:25 PM PST
Edmonds2007
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Color Pencil medium:' The SunSEt vIsiOnARy'
I think this is wonderful,coloured pencils scare the bejesus out of me.The pencils must be constantly resharpened,if patience is strained and one rushes the paper starts to get ripped and then unwanted effects start to dominate.Your work has a nice almost liquid like quality.At different times in different places a set of coloured pencils will be purchased by me but alas not used.Never the less work like yours makes me want to try again and for that I am grateful.

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the broken and the beautiful

Mar 09, 2008

He is so beautiful...

I have never been this girl. If you knew me, you would know. I love men, I have always been that girl with a relationship or a date. But i have never been this girl. I dont want marriage and babies, I just feel like I am too broken. But he is so beautiful.
We were just a coincidence, that one night stand that somehow attaches itself to you. I knew it after the first date, its that subtle feeling inside when you crush, only its your heart, not your stomach. Walking along the crowded cobblestone street, he wispers so no one else can hear, " You look really nice tonight", I at this moment stumble, trip, and fall into him so deeply.. he is so beautiful..
As we graduated into this perfect form, I would kept things so dark inside, though he knew my feelings as I knew his. It wasnt his fault, I left him mentally. I had checked out, its the one thing i have ever regretted in my life. I thought the drama surrounding was his real thoughts, but the drugs had clouded around and i was so intoxicated, that trying would just hurt. Everything hurt.
I just remember that one night where i told him he was it, i was done looking for anyone or anything. He held me close, his kiss held warmth and washed away the last reservations we may have held back. It was the last moment i was purely happy.
He is so beautiful...

Thursday, standing in that hallway and looking at him looking at me with 2 years put between us, i know my heart still belongs to him. I wanted more than that second. I wanted to apologize for being so selfish. So prejudice. I wanted to tell him how completly taken i was. But i just turned and walked away..
A good decision I had to tell myself..

It was the late night call that broke me...He is just so beautiful..

I didnt know what to say, how to respond. Every word he spoke was everything i had wanted to hear. It was complete perfection. I know now he had the same feelings still, that he wants me.
That maybe he needs me the way I need him..
But I am so broken.... and he is so beautiful


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