interests.
Music
- ,Obsessions come and go,but I love a lot of things. Random favorites jumping into my head right now: Brand New,Cheap Trick,Explosions in the Sky,Modest Mouse,Jack Johnson,The Decemberists,The Spill Canvas,The Postal Service,The Beatles,The Kooks,The Cranberries,The Roots,Pepper,Silversun Pickups,Rufio,Sublime,Taking Back Sunday.,
Books
- ,Again,lots,but some favorites: The Perks of Being a Wallflower,The Know-It-All,Lamb,Catcher in the Rye,Blu's Hanging.,
about me.
For a change of pace, here's some honesty from me: I grew up in Hawaii, but I'm going to school in D.C. Jury's still out on whether or not I'm happy here. I'm insecure. I wish that I wasn't but I am motivated by what I think will impress people. I'm not shy, but I'm quiet, and I will remain that way until I know you well enough to actually have something to say to you. I like music and photography. I don't like people who are condescending or overbearing. I'm careful and over think absolutely everything. I'm one of the most indecisive people you will ever meet. I like to observe and understand. In general I'm not all that sure about who I am right or what I want right now, but that's kind of the point, isn't it?
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Upon My Return
Apr 29, 2008
12 days, four exams, and one final paper from today, I will be arriving at Honolulu International. My freshman year of college is all but over. What a scary thought. For months, all I could think about was what I wanted to do once I got home. All the places I wanted to eat, the beaches I wanted to visit, the people I wanted to see. But as it rapidly approaches, I can't help but be afraid.
I was chatting with one of my best friends last night. And he seemed so distant. And I know why. He's changed a lot, and in my opinion, not for the better. I know I'm not in a position to judge that, but there it is. I'm worried about him. And it really scares me that he feels so far away from me. Things have changed so much since I left 10 months ago. My visit during the winter was short and not really long enough to see the changes, but they're all I can think of now.
I'm still excited to get back there, but I'm also afraid of what I'm going back to. I'm just never satisfied am I? Not happy in D.C., afraid to go home, what's left? I've been hiding behind the idea that I would be so much happier if I were at home. But what if I go back and everything is different? What haven will I have left? What happens once I realize I don't have one?
There's so much to reflect on about this year. So many things to understand and place in the context of my life. But I guess those things will have to wait, because they're apparently still happening. I guess I'll just have to deal with them upon my return.
04/29/08 14:54 PST
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