Friendships...........

Mar 22, 2008

As i get older, friends become more and more scarce for me to find. When i was younger, i was always surrounded by a group of people to call my own. Those friendships of my youth meant everything to me to survive. They were pure and true. Once i hit high school, things seem to take a turn for the worse. Those same friends i had changed into people that no longer cared about each other. They became trapped in the superficial aspects of life and forgot about what it truly meant to be a friend. After that point, the people i met in college came and went, never actually achoring a place in my life for me to call "friend". I've had bad experiences in life with friends. Somehow, they end up stabbing me in the back. Because of my past experiences, i have a hard time in trusting people and letting them in. Until recently, i started getting involved with more people. And to be honest, i am somewhat scared. Scared to let others in, only for them to hurt me or betray me. I feel sad sometimes, because i wish i had a group of friends like most other people i know. But i don't. I dont have any girlfriends to hang out with or to talk to on the phone. If i had the chance, i'd be scared either way.
Getting older seems to be more difficult. I miss the days of my youth...When the most important thing in my life was kiddy stuff, instead of the rest of my life .