Lost

April 1, 2008

How do people get apart from each other? I mean, how does it even starts? Can we do something to stop? Of course that i'm not just asking, there's a live motive for the questions, but anyway.
I had a friend since I was 2 years old, we went to the same schools, and among with 2 more girls we were the best friends ever, we were even called 4ever. But then we started high school, and that's when it happened. The four original best friends were all different, i mean, that's obvious, but we had different thoughts about the same thing, we never had a fight about that tough. But in the high school's junior year we had a particular new classmate, that became our friend. I never really liked her, what could I do? The other three girls seemed to like her, so I accepted. Unfortunately for all of us, in the second semester of 2nd year Emily had to move with her mom and sister to the other side of the country. So as the "new" girl (Ana) didn't like me and Nani, she decided to take Bia all for herself. I mean, like she owns the girl or some weird thing like that. But that's not even the worst part. My all time friend Bia, decided that was worth it to trade a thirteen years old relationshinp to a one year old that she had with Ana. And since Emily left, witch was last year, she hasn't even talked to us without Ana's concent. And as Ana never lets Bia do it, we haven't talked for almost one year. Acctually i'm saying something that's not true. We do talk, but just the essencial, we used to talked everytime about everything there is to talk about. But Ana blew it up. And i can say that this is her fault, 'cause Nani and i have really tried to deal with it and have a normal relatioship again, but that's not possible, and after almost one year i can say, 100% sure, that i've tought about every single possibility of why she betraid our friendship. And in the end, the guilty ones are always the same: Ana for pushing Bia away from the rest of us, and Bia, for letting it happen. And the final conclusion: As it all happened when Emily took off, it makes me think that the sittuation was already that bad on junior year, but as we had Emily who for being so needy united us, when she left, the union went with her... and that's a shame! So what should I do? Insist in a relationship that have been dead for a couple years or just forget them and move on.
I decided early this afternoon, that I would forget about them and move on, but i'm open to ideas, if you want to share it, feel free!