MaddHatter Male • 22 • North Chicago, IL • United States

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Status... Single
Orientation... Straight
I'm into... Writing Photography Music Acting Love Mind Design Film Art
I'm working on... A couple of modeling projects, as well as some acting and writing of my own.
My sites... http://www.myspace.com/djmyth1
My Profiles... http://www.myspace.com/maddhatter1

Welcome! Thanks for joining me on my journey to find the Shards of A Broken Heart.

Last On: 07/05/08 PST

About me

Welcome to the crazy world of Madd Hatter. Let's make this as detailed as possible so people don't ask me stupid questions later. I'm sorry people, but I get sick of answering questions that could easily be answered if you would READ THE DARN PROFILE!!!

Anyway, the name is Anwar. Yes it's an arabic name, and no I'm not Muslim (even though that was my FIRST religion). I'm 21 years old, and I'm form the Chi-Towm (The Windy City). I work as a MODEL, ACTOR, & RADIO DJ. It's a great experience!

Interests

Music

,I listen to just about everything except Country. I grew up in a family that loves all sorts of music from reggae all the way to J-Pop. So expect to hear some sort of diversity on my Myspace page. Don't be surprised if I bust out some Punjabi Music or some Amuro Namie (yeah. didn't think I knew who that was did you?),

Film

,I like all of those crazy demented movies like: Titus,The Crow,Interview with the Vampire,Bram Stoker's Dracula,Beetlejuice,Rocky Horror Picture Show,Nightmare Before Christmas,Love and a .45,Blue Velvet,Cecil B. Demented,The Lost Boys,Stigmata,Identity,The Bourne Identity,& Eternal Sunshine,

Artists

,Rumiko Takahashi | Jay Axer | Rose Besch | Tite Kubo | Rem,

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Jul 03, 2008 - 02:09 PM PST

SuperDan

MaddHatter

No problem, just don't be a stranger! :]

Jul 03, 2008 - 11:05 AM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

LMAO! Yeah, I guess you wouldnt want to tell anyone that. The secret is safe with me. lol. Well my mom is scary too but just not as bad as my dad because she is constantly yelling at me for no reason 24/7. I'm pretty much used to her yelling and she makes all these funny faces when she gets mad and sometimes i just have to laugh but that gets me in a lot of trouble. My dad is the quiet type so when he gets angry you know that he is pissed off.

Jul 02, 2008 - 08:26 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

I know! I really wanted to wake my dad up but he gets really mad. My friends say he has incredible hulk status. haha. Lets just say he has a short fuse. I was about to freak out though. I seriously slept on my floor because I didnt know if it was in my bed or not. Eww. Thanks for the nose ring compliment. I like it. Oh and I never told you, I took your advice on the shoes and it worked out perfectly!

Jun 11, 2008 - 07:36 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

Hey! i haven't talked to you in sooo long. How are you?

May 26, 2008 - 08:09 PM PST

dwhouse

Wow, this post really took me by surprise because I remember dealing with suicide when I was in high school. Like you, I felt like the one's I held closest were the ones trying to destroy me, so I took on the idea that I have to destroy them too, and the best way to get their attention was through destroying myself. I hope that you will not take this route because it does get better, maybe not instantly, but just wait.

May 26, 2008 - 08:05 PM PST

dwhouse

Apr 28, 2008 - 07:29 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

LOL. I really am thinking about it. eventually i will have to learn how to walk in heels.

Apr 28, 2008 - 07:25 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

LOL. I really am thinking about it. eventually i will have to learn how to walk in heels.

Apr 28, 2008 - 11:09 AM PST

Grigori

MaddHatter

hey bruh, just thought to check in with ya...see how things are going for ya. keep ya head up!

Apr 26, 2008 - 09:33 PM PST

VegeVolgger

MaddHatter

haha. ok im still thinking about the shoes, but I will definitely take your opinion into consideration. sorry about the language. i was really annoyed that day because I got like 500 phone calls in one hour without anyone saying anything. oh and the secret... i shall tell you guys one day.... hopefully soon.

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Do I Deserve To Be Treated This Way?

Jul 02, 2008

Well, I haven't gone anywhere QL. I am STILL here, I just haven't had much to say these last couple of days. I've been having a rough week. I haven't even been able to sleep. That is the sole reason why I'm not getting on cam tonight - I probably look like a Yeti or something.

ANYWAY, I've been trying to dodge my family lately, because I have come to terms that the majority of them are the source of all my problems. Kinda sad. You would think that you would be able to come to your family for comfort, but I was SOOOO wrong.

Saturday was our family picnic / pre-family reunion where my Aunt & cousins from Indiana came down to Chicago to meet the family that they haven't seen in such a long time, and introduce the babies to their family. That was pretty cool. My 2nd oldest cousin (the one next to me), really made me feel good about myself. I had a great time with them. I miss them so bad, even while I am typing this.:(

As time passed, and it was time to eat, a lot of people's moods started to change and then all of a sudden, I mean COMPLETELY out of NO WHERE, my oldest Aunt just starts attacking me. She was basically saying that I worthless, and that I don't do anything, and that I was lying about being in school, and I'm like WTF?!:,( What did I do to deserve that?! Then later on in the day, after the picnic and my aunt and her kids leave for Indiana again, me, my mom, and my grandma went over to my Aunt & Uncle's house (whom were putting together some kind of family song to sing at the Orlando Family Reunion on the 17th) to direct them. Once again, that was going well, UNTIL another one of my Aunt's attacks me, this time saying that I was a horrible singer and I should never sing again, and that I wasn't passive and some other stuff I won't say, but I was like 'OMG! WHAT IS THIS; EVERYONE DISS (INSERT NAME) TODAY?' I would have left, but considering my grandma was driving, that made that kinda difficult to do.

After all of that, I was seriously just a wreck, i'm still trying to get through all of that. I know you might be like, just let it go, but for me, that's kind of hard to do.