.: for those just daring to meet me . . .

. . . im maddie . . .

my mind is constantly in a state of absorption . . . so if i look at you with a blank stare, yes, i am listening to you, you have my attention, i am studying you and forming my own personal ideas of you . . . no, i will not share them, they are mine

learning how much there is to know, a never ending abyss, i realize my mind is just now acknowledging the deepest of ideas . . . by this acknowledgment, i succeed in growing closer to the truth of my life and what i aspire to achieve

i will not convince you or anyone of who i am or how i live my life . . . i will let those that really know me speak for me, but dont be fooled by imposters, there are many out there . . . honestly, i prefer you form your own opinion of me, either way, i welcome you and your ideas as well

to assist in keeping you from becoming offended, some side notes . . . i live a demanding, busy life . . . my day stops when my head hits my pillow . . . extremely blunt but i feel i am just being honest . . . if you cant deal, walk the other way . . . not judgmental but very methodical to my thoughts and opinions . . . very protective of those i love in my life . . . mi familia comes first – period – i suggest you never test that . . . i get along with most everyone until they cross or disrespect me, my businesses, or those i love . . . social is definitely a verb that describes me, but only when i want to be . . . its like a reflex, "have audience, will perform"

i wont respect people that cant admit when they are defeated or wrong . . . as stubborn and driven as i am, if i can admit, so can you . . . humility is one of the best qualities you can have in life . . . you can only tell me "you have no idea what you did" once before i decide you are just not worth the time

i would like to become deeply acquainted with my inner child . . . she comes out every once in a while, but i would love to see her smile more . . . i work so hard i am sure she is dying to get out

i invite creativity like a feel good drug . . . instant absorption . . . i thrive on being creative in every form . . . lyrics, dancing, designing, painting . . . love sketching with charcoal . . . developing events, choreography for fashion shows . . . life is one big dance, always moving fluidly, it feeds my soul . . . an avid art creator and admirer . . . all of it, in its rawest form to its most structured . . . tattoos that have meaning and are original . . . photography that shows emotion and holds more meaning than a randomly snapped party pic

organization keeps me on track, without it i would be lost . . . my blackberry is my back up brain . . . trust me, you will love my technology because it, at times, will remind me to be so good to you . . . and as far as the blackberry goes, dont touch it unless you want to lose an extremity . . . a little OCD, yah, but its all in good nature

im crazy independent but melt with the right person . . . always there when you need me, even if i just ran through the door moments before . . . insanely dedicated if i believe in you or your cause, but you have to believe first, show me passion or you will lose my interest

i refuse to live in the past but always demand more from the future . . . especially if it causes me to improve myself . . . attentive to a fault but in no way a push over, at least not for long . . . love all, but never love more than should be loved

i have my vices . . . cursing, being demanding . . . 5 inch high heels . . . sleep, when i can get it . . . green iced tea, big warm consuming hugs . . . those pastel mint chocolate drops you can only seem to find at the candy shop in the mall . . . kisses among close friends . . . novels that require intellect

love being admired, but love admiring even more . . . i strive to be a dreamer because i tend to be a realist more than i should be . . . am difficult to live with but the return is worth its weight

i will not miss a moment of this life . . . unravel me because i want to feel color . . . for the most part, all i feel is black and white