Jul 18, 2008
Dream Log #00019
July 17, 2008
I am in a giant high rise that is completely unstable it sways back and forth like a tall thin pole. I go out to the balcony while it's swaying back and forth. I almost fall off because of the inadequate railing and the broken cement beneath me. I go inside because I see my enemies in a high rise one o'clock from us, a bunch of punk kid gangstas laughing and throwing flairs at my building. I run inside when a flair lands in my balcony and begins to top like fire crackers. I run back outside and jump onto a cruise liner passing by my building and go inside it. There I meet my friend Meghan from high school and she introduces me to a fisherman who has his own market inside his ship. I was the only one buying. Meghan kept smiling as she showed me around the bowels of the ship where giant squid was piled on top each other and strange creatures piled in giant vats of sea creatures. I remember reaching into one and picking up a Sea Cucumber that felt and looked like a pickle! I was mostly grossed out by how all the fish for sale had been piled so openly in such a dingy corridors of the ship. I decided to buy the giant squid to make calamari out of. Meghan looked pleased.
Analysis:
I'm craving seafood? I don't know. I think my high rise is faulty because I feel like my life is topsy turvy and falling apart. I'm being attacked from far away unseen forces that are more scary to me than they are threatening. I'm running inside the boat to buy things because I think that eating and shopping will solve my dilemma but it really won't. I'm only distracted by the trusting smiles of someone I know from the past, Meghan, because I can't think of anyone more innocent and trustworthy than she. Maybe because she's this far away character that I don't really know anymore. And here life just seems so perfect and in place. In the dream, I'm buying something that pleases her because that's all I really know to do is please others other than myself. I'm always looking after other people besides what's best for me. In lies the root to all my problems.