Thinking.

Jan 25, 2008 - 18:52 PM PST
Ok, so I haven't been on quarterlife much lately...Lot of family drama which i never thought to post up here...but lately I've been thinking about how people deal with so much stress that they just keep in a bubble inside...It just keeps blowing up...bigger and bigger until, POP! Now, I don't think that I will "pop" anytime soon, but I think I should blow off some stress in here. So what would you do if your elder sister that you have always followed in example basically jumped off a cliff in her life? She is so easily manipulated by others that I'm afraid she will never be an individual without breaking down into a deep depression or something else around that area. Now if she were older by a couple years or so, this wouldn't be a big problem but shes only 17 and my only sister. After everything thats been going on, I really have a deep passionate hate for her. If you know me well enough, hate really isn't a word in my vocabulary but I can't think of another word to describe how I feel about her. The thing that bugs me the most is that she can say whatever she wants to try and bring my spirits down which doesn't effect me but she has been utterly rude to our parents which just is not acceptable in my mind. Yes, every now and then someone gets mad, yell, scream blah blah, but every night?

The only thing that worries me now is since I have always followed her as an example or tried to be like her when I was young, will I fall down that road too?

Thinking.


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Jan 26, 2008 - 16:15 PM

SuperDave531 on
Heya Jess :) everyone's got some struggles that no one else can help them with but themselves unfortunately. We just have to be patient w/ those people in doing so; parents and siblings alike. Remember also that you'll only be what you consciously direct yourself to become :) If you're conscious about a particular behavior or habit / set of habits that you wish to keep or not keep and stay on top of those things, then you'll be just fine :) just subject yourself to a reality check every now and again to make sure that it's sticking.