I watched the whole thing. I have seen worse bowlers. I have a couple of incidents where I dropped the ball behind me. You can't be as bad as that. And most of us have crappy jobs and that has nothing to do with us as people.
Talking to a computer screen seems a tad more sane than talking to yourself now doesn't it? And I'm sorry that life seems to suck-I've been there myself. But I watched your video and I thought it rocked...so I hope you feel some sense of accomplishment and worth in that :)
Funny stuff man. It's like your a fish out of water in this vidblog. No worries bro, at least you got it outta the way. And when it come to bowling, you don't gotta bowl like a pro to have fun. There's Flinstone bowling where you chuck it as high as you can in the air and watch it bounce as it comes back down. Drunken bowling is always fun. In fact some people's average score becomes higher while intoxicated. Namely myself. Sightseeing bowling is just as good. Lots of cute chicks go to bowling alleys. So just enjoy it for what it is. Throwing some balls around.