Surviving My Quarterlife

Jan 06, 2008 - 17:55 PM PST
Okay, so this is the first time that I have ever written anything online for everyone to see. I don't really expect anyone to be interested in what I write so I guess this is mostly for myself. However, if there is anyone out there in the internet world who finds what I write to be at all interesting, I would love to hear your comments and/or questions.

I am a 24 year old guy living in Los Angeles. These 24 years (soon to be 25) have gone by very fast. I feel like I have had a very happy, fun, and interesting life so far. I grew up in a nice home with loving parents, I have a good relationship with my brother and sister, and I had fun going to college in Boston. Now I have to figure out what the hell I am going to do for the next 25 to 50 years.

I think that I want to be a writer for television, which explains my interest in the show Quarterlife. However, being a writer in Hollywood is much easier said than done, especially with the writer's strike going on now. While this strike is going on and until I get a job that will lead to being a successful writer, I have to find a way to make money. I should backup and say that I had a pretty good job at a film and television production company until the strike happened. Now I am in L.A. with no real job and this is not easy.

On the romance side of life I have had one relationship that lasted about a month and after that just a string of one night stands. I am not really surprised that the one-month relationship did not last given that it was my first one. I'm not saying that I planned on breaking up, but I am just not surprised. I would really like to see one of the one-night stands again, but I am afraid to call them because I just do not want to be rejected. I will probably call them soon, but I am not looking forward to doing it.

I guess I should look at it like the worst thing that can happen is that this person is not interested in me. But maybe we will end up being friends or maybe we will build a real relationship. I guess there is no way to find out what will happen unless I call. I just get so fucking nervous about it!!! I hate that! I guess I will just have to force myself to get over that if I want to be happy. It is simply a difficult and challenging thing to do.

Okay, tomorrow I am going to take some kind of step to look for a job and I am also going to call the person that I had a one-night stand with and try to set up a date or something. Wow, writing about this stuff did really help motivate me to live life and it was kind of fun to write about. Okay, I will write more either tomorrow or one day this week. This will give me a way to hold myself accountable for life.

Okay, so there are three things that I am going to keep working on: 1-Exercise/nutrition, 2-money, 3-romance

#1. Getting/staying in shape - Although most people would probably say that I am in very good shape now, I want to get into even better shape. This is embarrassing to write, but I want to have like a male model body. Which I know I might never have, but I can at least try. If I aim really high maybe I will get somewhere close. Oh my god, I can't believe that I am writing this! I know this might seem stupid and shallow, but I do want to have a hot body, I can't help it.

#2. Money - I need to find a way to make money that does not depress me or stress me out too much.

#3. Romance - Finding someone to have a serious relationship with - I need to call people and go on dates more. It is pretty straightforward, but not easy to do.

Okay, if someone actually read my blog thing I will be very surprised. If someone actually read it and found it interesting than I will be even more surprised. And if someone actually leaves me a comment or message I will be the most surprised. Okay, bye for now until my next blog entry.

Surviving My Quarterlife

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Apr 10, 2008 - 15:49 PM

puddinhead

good luck being happy, or your journey to be happy...with everything.

Mar 31, 2008 - 19:52 PM

rex

So I somehow stumbled across your blog and will be starting my own soon as well. I think it is great that there seems to finally be a way for people to communicate their true selves through the internet. Keep in mind that this is kind of embarrassing for me to write, but since no one else has commented I had to let you know that at least it was read. This is just the first one, but I will be reading the rest as well.