thinking...

Mar 13, 2008 - 00:13 AM PST
i was thinking... about what really matters in life... does self concept,your worldview, and your identinty matter? i surely hope so... so thats what ive been thinking about.... first off i was thinking who am i... i think i found that i am still undergoing consruction so it hard to identify with people... i wanna think that im a person who is worldly, and smart but i find that hard to belive... i live on a island for christ sake.. how worldly can i be... and smart? as my english professor once told me and i quote " my dearest michael, you are incapable of comlex thought.. sorry to say"...so how smart can i be with a limited thought capacity.. lol.. i dunno how that works... i think but its about things that has already been said... like the ideas instilled in me by the music i listen to is totally marketed by the big corperations.. i try to rebel but dunno how to start... i mean all i know is im pissed off and have nowhere to go with it.. maybe im just trying to grow up.. what i do know is that im on the quest for knowledge and wisdom... looking inside yourself is a start but not the only way...you gotta learn from your surroundings and be able to consrtuct valid thought... like im not doing now... but who cares no one is reading this... and for those of you who notice how pathetic i am, i congradulate you for a job well done... trying to be something that i cant be is pathetic.. period. just a poser as the punks say ... i need to have balance.. little bit of this and little bit of that...i dont need to be accepted but i need to figure out what im doing... maybe i need solitude and peace of mind first before anything ... but who knows... anyways i dont wanna talk anymore{

thinking...


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Mar 13, 2008 - 08:01 AM

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I think perhaps that we are just far to aware of the horrible things that are said about us, that any thing goods are dimmed. Your teacher, not that he deserved that sacred title, was horrid to say such a thing. A leach, who feeds off your pain to compinsate for his. Fuck him, and think what would those you find reflections of yourself in, think of him.

We were taught to appreciate and understand the minds of others, because we were expected to be enlightened. But somewhere they forgot to teach us about self confidence and our own importance, and we learned to compare ourselves to our heros, as opposed to be inspired by them. how could we fill such a request?

The truth is, we all see your individuality, and any hints of the genius of others makes it easier to respect you for your ability to see the good in others. And it gives us a little hope about ourselves.

oh, and last thing. For most of us, life on a beautiful island is worldly, it all about where you looking in from. lol