flaking

Mar 05, 2008

There's always that one person that engulfs you. No matter what they do, you always go crawling back because you cannot stand to live without their presence. Certain sounds, smells, sights, words.... They all remind you of this person. And when someone says their name, you immediately listen in on the conversation. And forget about composure and strength when you see them. You tighten up and feel stupid to even try. Maybe they're yours. Maybe they used to be. Maybe they never will. But you can't deny that they are the best and worst thing to ever happen to you. You hate and and you love them. You can't stand how dumb you are when you can't let go of them or their memory. They are not the only one that will be in your life. You always think that you'll never find anyone else that will surpass the happiness they bring/brought to you.


And I just can't help it.

It's been a year since I met him.

And 8 months since we broke up.

But he still consumes me.

I've tried to move on but it's useless.



He's just making me flake away..

I'm usually so strong. He's the only thing that makes me cry anymore. And that's saying something, considering I almost NEVER cry.

Why does this happen?
What was so special about him?

I've always thought that maybe we met too early. Like, if we would have waited 10 years, we would have been married. But we're too young and too flighty. Maybe some day I'll learn.