First Portfolio Entry?

Jul 14, 2008

So yeah, I had the weekend from HELL. Started out ok,took a test on Saturday morning after getting a vote of confidence from my favorite boy, but then once it got to be time for me to tell him how I did...he wasn't around. After that I spent 8 hours in the park waiting for him like I told him I would, and he NEVER SHOWED UP. At 9:35 that night he called me and was like "Hey my friends kidnapped me and brought me to Allehgeny State Park and we're planning our buddy's bachelor party, he's getting married in September."
Ok so this is JULY...you guys have a whole other month you could have planned this in, he knew that meeting me for the fireworks that night was important to the start of our actual relationship. I don't think he wants this,and that is KILLING me because I've given up a lot for this kid. I cried myself to sleep that night because yet again, he promised he'd be home at a certain time and he came home four hours later than that. Do you know how ANNOYING that is?!
Yesterday was the same way. I woke up at 6 AM to say good morning because he had to go to work...but of course he says he'll be back, he's gonna talk to me all day and set up something for us to do...and here I sat all day waiting. When he finally did come back I got a five minute conversation and then he wanted to go to bed because he was tired from work. I said fine, can I give you a wake up call at like 4...this was at 1:30. He was like "..i guess" so I said well never mind if you wanna call me then you can call me when you wake up, that's totally up to you. Then he decided to pull the "no no, if you wanna call you can and if I'm awake I'll answer" card and I just said "fuck it, go to bed, I'll leave you alone."
He obviously didn't get the hint cuz at like 9:30 last night he got online and asked me how late I was gonna be on. I told him I would wait forever for him, thinking forever tonight would be at the latest 11:30. Well too bad he came back on at 1:30 and told me that his mom was having computer problems and he had had to fix it for her. I woke up cuz I heard the noise of his instant message and read what else he wrote. He said "I hate when you go to bed sad, its my fault. I suck"
I didn't want him to feel bad so I told him it wasn't his fault and that I still loved Jason! But he didn't really respond, and at 6:30 he left me a message saying "have a great day" with our signature kissy face...which made me smile a little. But I asked him if he wanted to hang out sometime this week, we'll see what happens there....I'm getting sick of waiting,I'm about to go back to my ex from school cuz he's at least attempting to make right the situation we left open-ended. Who knows what will happen next...stay tuned for more drama!!!

*~Kipper~*