You are an amazing girl and I hope that you find someone who treats you like the great person that you can be. There are people that can help you! And hope you get better soon!

I wrote you a little song. It's called 'Cheer Up' :) I know it's probably a little late from when you posted this, but I watched it the other day and it's my response.

My wife has bipolar disorder, so she has super highs and insane lows. As long as you look at yourself when you're low, paying attention to the whys, to how your body feels, the way you react to people and things in this state you'll come to realize that really knowing, really understanding what you're going through will make the rest of your life/happy time that much more sweeter. Just don't be a victim or a passenger. Feeling depressed is only a terrible waste if you don't learn from it, 'casue lets face it, life isn't going to forget to kick you in the nuts forever. It's going to happen again and again (sorry this is so long, subject is near & dear to me). I know this will be hard to practice, but getting a hug when you're down like this really helps, even if it's a stranger (who hopefully doesn't freak out). Take care