A Blog in which I feel critical.

Apr 05, 2008 - 09:06 AM PST

Argh. Lately, I've felt so...critical of everyone around me. Like, trying to figure out their motives, trying to figure out what's wrong with them...It bugs me, but at the same time, it doesn't. Like, people I've known my entire life, my mom, my grandma, my band teacher, other teachers (yeah, I'm not kidding). Lately, I've been seeing them as people, not just how they're related to me. But it bugs me because I've also been critcial of myself. I'm mad at myself, because I feel like a shell of what I used to be. My freshman and sophmore years, I lived to live, to have fun. Now, I just feel like this depressing person. =/ I used to make people smile, I used to make them laugh, got my pleasure from that. But now...there's two things I think that is blocking me from that. I'm not going to say them here, because I kinda don't wanna bring it up...I want to be that fun person again, but I've also been too tired to. I don't know why; my fight with that friend is over. School is pretty easy. I don't feel stressed...=/ It's frustrating.

Sorry for the venting. ^,^'

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