humanity

Mar 04, 2008 - 00:30 AM PST

Here I am going throughout my life, doing the same things over:going to school, working, studying, doing homework, trying to get together with all of my friends. There never seems to be a moment where it feels right, what i should be doing with my time. Everyone says, "life is short, live it to the fullest", but honestly how many of those people in reality live each day to the fullest. If I'm not at school, I'm at work, if I'm not there I'm at home trying to figure out what I'm doing with my life. This coming fall I am suppose to be attending college for the next four years of my life, but is that something I want to do. What I really want to do at least before I go to college is to join the Peace Corp. I want to at least focus on someone other than myself before I have to be consumed with educating and supporting myself. I don;t even know if i want to live that life where I have my life centered around me. I know it sounds unusual, but I personally just dont have the heart to focus solely on one person. I can't be the focus of my life, I know I'm boring. I want to really live before i go to college. I want to get away form the world i live in and see reality before i am sucked back into the fantasy that the human race and mankind are safe and are not destroying the world they live in.