I HATE HIM!!!

Feb 26, 2008 - 21:20 PM PST

Gosh, this boy keeps messing with me. I have known him since I was 4. He is so..ugh. He bothers me all the time, yet he is one of my best friends who is a boy. I hang out with him alot but He won't leave me alone. He is popular but sort of geeky. I don't even know how I became friends with him, it just happened. My other friend said he is really cute, but i just looked at her with disgust. I felt naucious and sad at the same time. But he has this feeling of comfortness you know. He is so arrogant at times but then sometimes he is so..well he makes you feel warm. He is so egotistical and just ugh! But like I said, he has this warm feeling. And he is funny too. But it still was sad when my friend said that. But I can't blame her, he is cute, and funny. And everytime I look at him I smile. But why am I always so sad, when I here her say that, I mean? It's weird you know? Maybe it's something else. Yea...it might be somethig else.

Let's make a list:
-I am sad when my friend says she likes him
-He makes me smile
-He makes me feel comfortable
-He makes me feel warm
-I have known him since I was 4
-I love him
-I...wait, BACKTRACK, WHAT DID I TYPE ABOVE!!! OMG, WHY IN THE HELL DID I WRITE THAT?!?!

Me + Him???
No it couldn't possibly, could it, but that would explain why I feel naucious when my friend says she likes him. I'm jealous, because she says she likes him, but I love him.

OMG!!! I LOVE HIM!!! OH CRAP!!!!

I...I...I need to get away from the computer...