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i wish

Dec 19, 2007 - 12:22 PM PST

So much is going on in my life right now, that im not quite sure what to write about. I guess the biggest issue is my relationship. I love my boyfriend, i always have. This is the second time that we have gone out, and things arn't looking to good. I dont trust him. I understand that we are starting a new relationship and that i need to let the past go, but i cant. I know that he has feelings for his ex i'm not stupid anyone with even a little bit of a brain can see that. I just wish he would stop lying to me and actually tell me. And now he is saying that he wants to move with me to the bay, but i dont know if he wants to move to be with me or to use me to get out of this town..It doesnt help that most my friends dont even want me with him. I lost my best friend because of my BF. I thought that being with him would make me happy, i thought that was what i was missing. But i still cry every night, i still cut..I wish that i can put life on pause just so i can catch my breath. Im moving a 1000 miles a min, and i have not idea what im doing. I dont want anyone to get the wrong idea about this blog i love him i really do, but does he love me?

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stephensan...

Dec 22, 2007 - 16:27 PM

i believe in true love
i believe the best things in life don't come easy
i believe there's pain in living
i believe at times we need to follow our hearts and at other times we need to stay our emotions
i believe the right answer isn't always the easiest
i believe you'll find your way
i believe that true belief is always followed by action towards that belief.

what do you believe?
you can start with believing that you're beautiful, and you're worth so much.

Leviathon

Dec 20, 2007 - 19:31 PM

lying in a relationship is just bad news period. z1nab is right about that. but for me. im too stubborn to let someone i love go. so its really up to you and the battle between your head and you heart. hope things get better. dont cut dear. i love you and we have never even met. cheer up. *hugs*

z1nab

Dec 20, 2007 - 07:09 AM

love sure is one of the most complicated words in our language. you just have to remember that no matter how much you love someone, doesn't make that person perfect... and if trust is not part of this game then there is nothing more you could do with that person. now about him, i wouldnt stick around if i were you, the way you explain this he doesnt seem too honest with you, and that can only mean that he is not being honest with himself. he is hiding his emotions because he feels bad about them. now that doesnt mean he necessarily still has feelings for that other girl... it simply means that there is something he prefers not to tell you. whatever what it is its important enough to him to lie to you.

i wont tell you what to do cause its your life! but i hope this helped.