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salvaXdana | Scranton, PA • United States , Age 21

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im not a quitter but

May 04, 2008 - 20:36 PM PST

i dont think i can do this anymore.

im in school to be an art teacher.
I want it SO bad. dont get me wrong.
but that is the thing- i have a great knowledge of ART, i love creating ART, its the one thing i feel i am any good at, even if im not amazing.

the thing is- i am NOT good at school. Im not good at these courses they make you take even though they truly have nothing to do with the profession you are seeking. I am HORRIBLE at math. i am horrible at science and history, other than art history.

i dont know what to do with myself.

i am seriously at my breaking point, because in the end, these classes are hurting me more than helping me. they are pushing me back. and its not that im not trying, because i am trying SO hard. i just dont know how much more agony i can take. and i KNOW its SUPPOSED to be hard. its supposed to be difficult. and im not looking for a way around it. its just really making my goal difficult, when i know i will make a fantastic art teacher. i am just not smart in other areas. i never ever have been.

ive always been right brained. the most hard core right brained person ever, and not on purpose to have an excuse for not doing well in the other areas. its just how ive always been.

and i really dont know what to do about it. i dont know if i have other options, i dont know what to fucking do.

i never use the f word. and even though i just typed it, and i feel badly, im going to leave it.

advice? comments?

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heathermcc...

May 05, 2008 - 11:44 AM

I feel your pain, so it's time for you to rely on the goodness of others. Does your college have some sort of tutoring center? Or can you find tutors who'll charge a nominal fee to get you through these courses.

The truth is that even an art teacher is better off having a well-rounded education ... it's good to have background knowledge in a lot of areas that aren't necessarily your primary discipline. But you have to use the resources available sometimes to get the most of those courses (in addition to passing them).

I can think of a few courses I struggled with as an undergrad, but I had a friend to tutor me, and I ended up enjoying the class in most cases.

You can do it. Commit yourself to finding someone to help you, and visit your instructors frequently throughout the semester, just to let them know you care and want to pass. That can go a long way toward helping you at the end of a course.

Good luck!
Heather