i've got high hopes

Apr 08, 2008 - 16:36 PM PST

and low expectations.

you know when everything seems to be wrong and the only thing you want is someone who understands you??? well i've been in that state of living for a while. i want someone who just can let me be sad for a day and be fine the next, i have a lot on my mind and sometimes it's overwhelming... as i wrote that i had a thought, if it's overwhelming for me, why would i even try a relationship? i mean i DO have cancer and a child, not many 20 somethings want someone with that type of baggage.

i'm going to be a spinster at this rate.

i shouldn't say that about myself, i am told that i am loved on a frequent basis, by someone whom i adore. i just wish his actions we bigger than what he says. If you love someone, please show them so, because just being told that i am loved somewhat sucks. i want that kiss that makes my heart skip a beat, that sweet hand holding action...

but for now i have a screaming two year old who refuses to go to bed. what a toss up.