January 26, 2008

Jan 26, 2008 - 20:49 PM PST

Here I am, blogging again after I decided it wasn't my thing. Long after I've stopped using a xanga, myspace blog, or facebook "note" feature, I return to blogging. Maybe I'm doing it again because this is a much lesser known arena and I feel safer airing my thoughts to strangers than to the people they concern? Maybe I just have some sort of sick exhibitionist tendency to want people to know about my life, even though they probably won't care? Who knows, I sure don't.

So, here's the deal today: I spent nearly 7 hours in an 18x12 room with some of my closest friends interviewing new members of our sorority. We got through 20 girls tonight, but we still have 13 more to go through tomorrow. 15 minutes doesn't seem like a long interview, but it adds up quickly. I have never felt so old as when I'm around college freshmen who think that they have it all figured out. I know I was that way at one time and, in the unlikely event that anyone I may have offended with my youthful idiocy is perusing this material, I apologize for anything and everything I may have said.


Here's the thing I hate most about being emotionally aware: you beat yourself up for having emotions that you tell other people it's perfectly fine to have. Why can't we all just be emotional and get on with our lives? When did we start feeling guilty for feeling?