just venting. (over crap that people feel they must do!!!)

Jan 01, 2008 - 12:03 PM PST

I'm so sick of "being too hard on myself". I push myself for a reason! I strive to do MORE than my "personal best" for a reason! So seriously, people need to stop telling me that I need to calm down because what I've done is fine. It's not fucking fine!!! I can always do better. If I get second place, I could have got first. If I get first place, I could have gotten a better score.

(What I push myself at really has nothing to do with first place or second or whatever. I'm just using that as a metaphor i suppose.)

And maybe I will never be satisfied with myself, but who the hell has the right to tell me not to do the freakin best as possible!?!?!!? It's not like I'm going to kill myself (according to some people) by being a perfectionist. so let up. If I'm not happy with myself, let me be. It's not like you can change it. The only person who can is me. I'll probably change over time anyway. So stop getting me aggravated over something you will never change!!!