Late night Insomniac

Dec 19, 2007 - 22:09 PM PST

Mood: and some more

It's funny how around this time last month, i was preparing for my final exams. I remember feeling like the the world was swallowing me whole. Stress ran through my vains like nicotine runs through a coffee addict. I was doomed to miss my fave shows at night as well as checking my Myspace for the 10th time within an hour... At that point in life i lived to do only one thing: STUDY till my brain could not take it in anymore. My whole life seemed to revolved around school and the demand it had taken on my life to pass my classes. Writing paper scattered everywhere, piles of books on the fundamentals of international law on my coffee table, pens and highlighters in every corner of my couch, auh the chaos. I remember looking at the clock and calculating the time i had left to study for two finals and somehow cram sleep in there somewhere. Every time i paused from reading about minority politics, time somehow would leap from hour to hour at such an alarming rate that i felt i would never have the sufficient time to study....I would sleep for only 1 hr at a time, staying up for as long as my brain could understand the text in my books..... And now....here i am....I survived that week of immense stress and am alive to talk about it....All this free time....and that's it.....At first it was difficult for me to just "do nothing"....I was so use to for 5 months waking up 2 hours early to read a chapter for my religion class because we had a quiz that day, or studying my messy notes over my american constitution class....But now, all of that is over....Over until january 14 when i would go back...but for then...i have nothing to do....no homework, no tests, no anxiety attacks over cramming...Just time....you would think that i would just relax right??Nope...not at all...I cant collage every cover of my notebooks...I have no clue as to what to do...That is why i am sitting here writing this blog that maybe no one will read....at 12:08 in the morning.... Yep.. Late night insomniac .