late nights

Feb 28, 2008 - 02:34 AM PST

I haven't been thinking as much as I used to anymore
it's really sad
because I haven't exactly been preoccupied
can we control our thinking?
I can't just make myself deep think, it kinda has to happen on it's own.
but when I deep think...oh shit, I deep think
I can't stop the thoughts, and I end up wanting to perform a lobotomy on myself...
there are little fucking bugs flying around my fucking head....i hate them

I NEED SOMETHING EXCITING TO HAPPEN TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEE
AHHAHAIHDASFLAHILFHSDB

I realize that I always end up falling for people who will never like me back
No one will ever want me
ok now I'm just being depressing

On another note
I'm on a path, it's not what I expected, but things are going in an interesting direction in my life....

ok I'm boring myself.
good night.