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Mar 04, 2008 - 00:07 AM PST

Ok. so some call me a work-a-holic. others think i have family problems, which i do but really its none of your business. whatever it is you think. go ahead and think it.
so in March, yes the one thats just beginning, I get 6 days off total. im not complaining, i have to say I'm almost proud that i can accomplish it. But the most ridiculous part... people still ask me to work for them on my non work days... what???? yea funny. so of course i feel bad because i want to help them out and all but at the same time its like, come one, are you kidding me? ahhhh....

i guess the other part is i enjoy working. i feel good about being able to do things. It really makes you feel... ahh.. whats the word...powerful? no.... important to yourself i guess. better self esteem. however you like to put it. I see it as, no matter where i work what i do is important. How much i do and what not is also important. it drives me insane (i just realized how incorrectly my grammar is. o well side note) it drives me insane how other people don't see that. Ill admit, sometimes ill get a little egotistical about the whole thing. but on the other hand there is kinda a place for that. not for judging just for being better in a way. (hard to explain, understand? great) I guess ive learned enough ive forgotten what its like to not feel important and to put yourself upon others when you can easily do it for yourself. (and this goes for most things in life.)
*like when someone asks me to get up and turn off the light when theyre right next to it....
*or when they ask you for a 3rd or 4th refill just because they can see that you need it to. ( so you know the whole "hey, while your up... could you?"

any whoo. that was today for ya. and i guess march in a nut shell. its also my bf's bday in a couple of days. what to do about that? no clue. any ideas whoever reads this, please tell.

good night...