lost...

Mar 11, 2008 - 05:35 AM PST

so tonight i had another nightmare... one involving fighting... i dunno why i get these dreams.. maybe its my psyche reminding me that i need to fight to survive... in daily life and in my head... i cant hide from reality by escaping into my head... nor can i escape my thoughts by diving into reality... because there one in the same... my thoughts control my actions and feelings .. and reality controls my thoughts.. so what do i do?... i have no clue...any suggestions? anyone?...ill take that as no one is actually reading this and have found better and more interesting things to do... right when someone needs help no one is there .... but ill keep on fighting...one day as a time... i mean i could give up and get frustrated an become another fucked up peson.... but id rather take anothe road... one that most people take when confronted with a problem.. that is to try and solve it.. what is the meaning of my life? what does society need me to do? should i even follow what society wants? .. all these questions badger me in my daily thoughts... what does it mean to be who i am?...im trying to find meaning in life here folks... also a direction....