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Apr 24, 2008 - 10:34 AM PST

i'll never find someone who won't break my heart. i guess i just have to find someone who i can deal with breaking my heart. it seems so hard that for the one who "loves you" to treat you like it 100% of the time. it's hard to do that for him too. it will always be hard, if they're worth it though, you'll always fight and never give up. maybe i just need to stop have expectations of anyone and everyone. then i'll never be let down or disappointed. outside of family, there is no such thing as unconditional love. all love is conditional. "i do want to be with you but..." there are rules to follow and lines you cannot cross...I understand...but no one will ever be by your side forever...besides my mom dad and brother i guess. but maybe they're enough. they're the only 3 people who have never let me down. they're the best friends i've ever had. they say they'd do anything for me, they say they'd die for me, and i know they would. they're the only ones i know who would never lie to me. maybe they're enough.maybe i've been selfish and have been wanting someone more when i have everyone i already need. i know that as long as i have them, i'll be okay.