Movies

May 10, 2008 - 12:29 PM PST

grrr! ugh! well, i guess before i go any further i should explain this pent up agression and anger...ok, fine. last night i went to a sleepover with a bunch of girl friends and we stayed up until 5:00 this morning watching chick flicks, eating pizza, cookies, and sour patch! sounds fun right? well, it would be if i wasnt such an "growing" adolecent! freshmen year of high school...what is on every girl's mind? for those of you who answered boys, you are 100% correct! so, why, again, am i so frustrated? because in every single one of those chick flicks the girl got the guy even though they such confidence issues and pushed them away and blah blah blah! why cant it be that way in real life? because it's a movie! well, i say we should either have a fantasy world or a more realistic hollywood! dont get me wrong, i love these movies, and i know that no one would go to see a movie where the girl doesnt get the guy, but ever since i was little, these movies filled my head with fantasies that im so afraid im never going to even have a chance to get! now, usually something this trivial wouldnt send me into a rant, but this stupid guy @ school that i liked and thought was finally seeing me for me...i think started going out with this other girl and now he is all obnoxious and i dont like this side of him...i know that he is always flirting and maybe a little full of himself, but this is an entirely new side of him, and i just want the old sam back...my friend sam. well, THAT sounded cheesey! but still...not that it even matters anyway! he never thought of me that way, im just another girl he "dazzles" and gets answers on homework from. i feel...*sniff sniff* ... jk!!! im not going to get too girly on you guys (whoops...a little too late?) but u know whats funny? my mom is trying to sell our house and it has been on the market forever. i told her something has to happen before we go. its kind of childish, but i hoped that something good for me...someone...would come along and realize that im not as (i dont know...weird?) as they think i am. stupid huh?