My first true fuck up

Mar 04, 2008 - 04:20 AM PST

Some people say that the human spirit is invincible. It's not. My first real fuck up in this life caused a girl to kill herself a couple of years ago. I hate myself for never recognizing her, for only viewing her as an object of desire. My God, if I could go back I would held her while she cried. I could've called her before she jumped. But I didn't. Her blood is on my hands, and I can never change that. No matter what I would've done now that I know what would have happened, I did nothing back then. I wish so bad that I could see her once more, hold her, wipe away her tears. But I can't, and now there's no one aroundto wipe away mine.