my lover, my friend...

Mar 07, 2008 - 16:03 PM PST

not many of you will understand my sins. sins of neglect. sins of disrespect. when i say this i talk of the ocean. my mother, my lover, and my friend. today she called to me thru my dreams. i answered as i walked across the street.i smelled the ocean mist and felt the ocean breeze fill my nostrols with love. i was hesitant to answer because of my sins. yet we spoke thru emotions. i asked for forgivness and she abosorbed me. tho she absorbed me she said i didnt understand. why do you walk away? why do you not play as a child in me as you used to? i said i didnt know the answer she said to find yourself is to do these things. i knew that but denied it because i am arrogant. to think that one can find oneself without the ocean is obserd. she surrounds us. she lives thru us.she loves us until infinity. i cried tday as i was sitting on the peir. cried tears of sorrow. tears of joy. it wont be the last time i cry when dealing with the ocean....