new girl

Jan 11, 2008 - 19:48 PM PST

im new to blogging and so far i find it pointless. why would u want your heart spilled out for the whole world to see, hear, whatever? And yes, i know, you can make it private, but then you should really just use a journal. It's more personal and you can actually customize it exactly the way you like it. Of course, if your like me, blogging might make sense because i like the sound of the keyboard. It is like my comfort toy. I do have a black macbook and I truly enjoy the sensation of its flat keys giving to the weight under my fingers. I am not a weird person. See this is another problem with blogging, i feel like i need to proove myself to whomever may be reading this. I could not just be judged on what my context says, but also on my grammar, spelling and use of words. I could be judged on my use, or lack of smiley faces and, bold, italic and underlines. a person could just about find a way to judge me on anything. But i dont care, becasue i know who i am you dont. But then there are people you know and see everyday in halls and they judge you. thats a problem. when someone makes a rude comment about your shirt or about your weight. trust me, I am not complaining about my weight, it was just an example. but you should catch my drift. Yea, thats when i have a problem. living in a small new york apartment, i dont have time or room to worry about my popularity or friends. I actually do have time, to much time. I often find myself with nothing to do but think about all of my flaws and how i dont think i can make them better because they are just who i am. But i dont have room. I live in a one bedroom apartment. this is a grand problem. my aprtment is filled with the different types of furniture and décore of three diffferent people when there is only space for one. I have actually run out of things to say, and there is no way of ending this. I hope you have gotton something out of this, but i dont know what it should be. perhaps thats the beauty of blogging.