New Year, Same Boring Life

Dec 31, 2007 - 20:44 PM PST

Its almost New Years.
An hour and a half away to be exact.
I know where everyone else is, out, partying, or maybe even just being with family, or even just with one other person a best friend, a brother, a sister, a mother, a significant other. But here I am with my computer. Happy New Years eh? New Years is never happy for me. Because I start every year the same way just a year older. I've never been kissed on New Years. I've spent new Years sitting in my bedroom listening to fire works go off ever since I can remember. I'd feel a little bit better if it were by choice. I mean I wish I would have at least been invited somewhere whether I could go or not. That may be stupid, but It's how I feel. I'd much rather be sitting here alone knowing that someone at least wanted to me with them enough to invite me to be within the same vicinity as them...but no. No one invites me, no asks, no suggests, nothing. Yeah maybe I am a bit whiny. But arent I supposed to be excited for the new year? How can I be when its a constant reminder of how goddamn alone I am?

I must be utterly repulsive.

THE REAL POINT starts here even though its just as depressing.

Nothing is accomplished
Another whole year gone and I have absolutely nothing to show for it. Not one thing. I'm just a year older, a year more experienced, maybe a bit more mature, maybe a bit taller? But there is nothing of real value to show you, to say that was one hell of a year. Because it wasnt. It was just another year.

I hate how my life got this boring.