normality?

Mar 14, 2008 - 21:08 PM PST

Is it normal to feel so lost in just my nine-teenth year of living? After almost completing my second year of college, I feel like I am completely out of my element to think that I am "supposed" to start my third year in such a short amount of time, in August. I have been praying and hoping for answers, or simply a hint of direction sometime soon. I have been apartment hunting in the downtown area of the city I reside in, Savannah, GA...but I start to think hard about signing an entire full year contract once again, which would ensure my stay for a whole nother year...it's scary to think about, because I don't know if it is what I really want. I don't know if I am staying in hopes that a past love will come back to me and want to try it all over again, or if I am staying because I am scared to step out of the conformist society, and taking a break from school...I just don't know. I feel as if my thoughts are scattered about so carelessly and helplessly. I need guidance. I want to travel but I wish that I could have someone by my side to explore with. I am yearning for something that produces results...