ok so this is this entry...from the book ......

May 09, 2008 - 11:04 AM PST

'[i]Sweethearts ' (highly recommend!!)
so here it goes...
i think about how there are certain people who come into your life, and leave a mark..
i don't mean the usual faint impression: he was cute, she was nice, they made me laugh, i wish
i'd known her better, i remember the time she threw up in class.
and i don't just mean that they change you. Alot of people can change you-the first kid who called you a name, the first teacher who said you were smart, the first person who crowned you best friend. it's the change you remember, the firsts and what they meant, not really the people...
i'm talking about the ones who, for whatever reason, are as much a part of you as your own soul. Their place in your heart is tender;a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. Just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways, and when you try to define those hundered ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless. If you had a lifetime to talk, there would still be things left unsaid..
**ok so if u actually read this entry u must be thinking 'this must have been a bitch to write!!"
well your right it was but it was worth it and plus i'm a pretty fast typer...