phooey.

May 09, 2008 - 17:36 PM PST

So recently ive been feeling unbelievably pissed because i have no way to express myself. I have an urge to express myself; to write a song, to make a poem, to paint something profound, but the problem is I FUCKING CAN'T, which is a ridiculously debilitating feeling. It's like having the ability to fly and being tied to a tree. I feel like this subject would make a great song or poem, but as previously mentioned, i always fail at the production step. I've tried several times to sit down and write my thoughts on paper but they always come out sounding less then what i imagined them to be. Which is why reality is such a bitch; you can imagine ANYTHING you want in your head, crazy as you want, and you can warp it and twist it to be perfect, but then theres that crushing reality that it looks cliche on paper. I've tried messing around with music, but its sort of hard to vent frustrations using half a year of piano experience (which most kids have my the time there five). I suppose if i was in a do or die situation (as in the evil lord vorgishumgle had a sick underground arts fair, which he put on my kidnapping people and forcing them to be artsy or get killed) i could probly make something up, but no matter how often i try, nothing i write does justice to what i think and or feel and that, dear readers, sucks hard.